Immortal Beloved.

"Good morning, on July 7

      Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I nedd a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a clam consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours"

 A friend posted this on a social network, and I just fell in love with it. This is one of Beethoven's love letters which were found after his death. The compilation of these letters are entitled, The Immortal Beloved Letters.

  So heart-wrenchingly beautiful.

Taking a leap

I made the decision with rationality. 

Not to harm. 

I am not a person that easily makes big decision. In fact, i don't like making big decisions. Because I'm too afraid to suffer the consequences; if things go the opposite way. 

But i took a leap. And i did it. And it felt good. Because I know it was something i had always wanted. 

To stand up and say what you want; made me feel good. For once in my life. 

But never did I think that it would haunt me as to be nothing more but; regrets. 

Regrets. 

I have so many of them I never thought this would be one of them. 

Funny how you think that since you've had it broken before, you'd be numb to it. 

But, no. 

The second time feels even worse.

13/1/2014

     

 

 "It's the end of an era,"

 The boyfriend has officially ended his student life. No more law school! *fireworks* 

 And in two months, it'll be my turn. Can't wait for us to start the new era together.

Congratulations, love. You've made it. Good luck for your future undertakings. I will be with you. By your side. Through all your choices. 

I promise. 

Sidenote; two more months and goodbyee LDR!