Coming Home.

'I'm coming home, I'm coming home. Tell the world I'm coming home.'

In approximately 11 hours I'll be on the plane back to Malaysia. Honestly, I can't wait to be home. These past 6 months has been such a roller coaster ride. There's only so much of stress a person can cope with.

People have said to me, 'You're always coming home. You might as well have just stayed and continued your studies in Malaysia.'

And some people have said, 'It's not like you do much when you get back, why don't you just stay in Japan and enjoy it over there.'

And some would also say, 'Go work part-time or something, over there. Get some experience!'

What they don't know is that, the difference between us is the fact that I can run away for awhile from all the pressure I have, while they might not have the chance. What they don't know is that, studying abroad is so much more challenging than they think. What they don't know is that it ain't all fun and play. You have responsibilities. You have bills and rent to pay. You have groceries to buy. You have only loneliness to keep you company sometimes. You have to stay positive all the time to keep yourself from falling apart. Its hard. Its fun, but its REALLY hard. So stop complaining about your education because trust me, half of us here wish we were in your shoes right now.

This past semester has been really tough on me. Everything is starting to get harder, and more complicated than I have ever imagined.

So I need to get away from this place for a while. I'm not running away from it, no I'm not. I'm just not ready to face it again..just yet. The intensity of it all is driving me crazy.