Calculus wins

Situation: right after the first part of the exams;

 S: Okay, so I obviously am failing this exam. I had no idea how to do the integral for this equation *points at paper* 

 Me: *staring at paper* *cricket sounds* ...*more crickets*....Oh yeah, totally. Couldn't do that one either. Totally get what you mean. 

......................

     Integration? We had to integrate that? 

So looks like that's the end of my post-grad career. Haha

 Oh well, look on the upside of things. 5 days until I get home and get to see this handsome face; 

5 days!

Carbon-carbon

  Carbon-carbon bond freaking. 

    Carbon-carbon bond freaking.

       Bond freaking. 

...no idea what I was trying to write there. 

Oh God, exams are in less than 24 hours and my head is spinning in all possible angles. 

Make.it.end. Pleaseeeeeee

"I came, I saw, I conquered"

 Less than a week to my post-grad entrance exams (5 days to be exact) and I have kept it cool. Except for yesterday; when it actually hit me in the head that everything is weighing on this exam and so I did what I know best..I panicked. 

 But thank God Abang and Zharif were around to calm down my nerves. Something abang said hit really close to the heart though; 

 "Don't for a minute think that me or anyone else will think less of you if you fail." 

*silently cries* 

 I've always been one that's scared of failures. But I can't really control what'll happen in the future no matter how near it is, kan? 

Fighting, fighting! 

Procrastination to a newer level.

27/1/2012:

• Chemical English

31/1/2012:

• Organic Chemistry 3

1/2/2012:

• Electrochemistry
• Programming (C Language)

6/2/2012:

• Analytical Chemistry 3

7/2/2012:

• Calculus B2

9/2/2012:

• Electromagnetism

10/2/2012:

• Introduction to Chemical Engineering

13/2/2012:

• Crystal Chemistry
  

16/2/2012:

• Physical Chemistry 2

*headdesk*

Exams are around the corner, and I really should have made 'stop procrastinating' my first new year's resolution. Who am I kidding, it wouldn't have even lasted a week.

I really need to start studying.

I REALLY need to stop procrastinating.

Then again...........................

Good luck for finals, everybody! I know I'm gonna need a lot more than pixie dust or luck, for mine! XD

Coming Home.

'I'm coming home, I'm coming home. Tell the world I'm coming home.'

In approximately 11 hours I'll be on the plane back to Malaysia. Honestly, I can't wait to be home. These past 6 months has been such a roller coaster ride. There's only so much of stress a person can cope with.

People have said to me, 'You're always coming home. You might as well have just stayed and continued your studies in Malaysia.'

And some people have said, 'It's not like you do much when you get back, why don't you just stay in Japan and enjoy it over there.'

And some would also say, 'Go work part-time or something, over there. Get some experience!'

What they don't know is that, the difference between us is the fact that I can run away for awhile from all the pressure I have, while they might not have the chance. What they don't know is that, studying abroad is so much more challenging than they think. What they don't know is that it ain't all fun and play. You have responsibilities. You have bills and rent to pay. You have groceries to buy. You have only loneliness to keep you company sometimes. You have to stay positive all the time to keep yourself from falling apart. Its hard. Its fun, but its REALLY hard. So stop complaining about your education because trust me, half of us here wish we were in your shoes right now.

This past semester has been really tough on me. Everything is starting to get harder, and more complicated than I have ever imagined.

So I need to get away from this place for a while. I'm not running away from it, no I'm not. I'm just not ready to face it again..just yet. The intensity of it all is driving me crazy.